Should I stay or should I go?
Nov
02
Thus brings me to the topic on everyone's mind. You have no idea how many times per day I get asked how long I will be here in Italy, if I have made up my mind about staying, where I've decided to go to school, etc. Those of you that know me best know that I hate making decisions...especially big life decisions that shape my entire future. It is very difficult for me and these topics are a source of major stress in my life right now. This is partly why I have not been blogging nearly as much as usual, because every moment of my free time is taken over by online research on various topics and schools, as well as getting some much needed counsel from loved ones. Ironic that I'm the one wanting to go to school to become a counselor.
Anyway, I haven't quite made up my mind yet as my opinions on the matter change daily. There are far too many details and pros/cons that go into this for me to even begin to describe. It's funny because during the first 3 or 4 months that I was in Italy, I completely ignored all of these decisions and was just wanting to enjoy my time here. I commented that I felt like I was watching a movie of my life and just waiting to see what would happen next. I played a very inactive role in actually making any decisions. I guess that finally caught up with me and I realized that I need to be getting some things done myself and taking the initiative to plan my future. Now, that has completely taken over and often I feel like I can't just live my life here in Italy and enjoy it in the moment.
I am working on a compromise between the two ideas.
A decision will have to be made very very soon, so I will be sure to keep you posted. However, if you want more info than what I am willing to post on my blog for the entire world to see, you will have to give me a call or an email/message and I would love to chat more. I miss all of you back home...you mean the world to me. Keep praying that our all-knowing God will continue to cradle me in His mighty hands and never let me go.
On a more light-hearted note... Halloween here was a blast. We had a great party at a bed and breakfast in a vineyard overlooking the entire countryside. The costumes were great, the food delicious and full of pumpkin, the dancing was classic, and there was a wonderful international guest list including a few other Americans that I hadn't met yet! For my costume, I decided to fully embrace my Americana in all its glory. The only downside to the night was the rain outside which put a damper on our adventure to the discoteca after the party. But when I say adventure... I mean it. We were 3 full sized adults, dressed ridiculously, and piled into a little clown car (aka SMART car). Needless to say, Steve and I got very close very quickly. Good times!
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